oh man, oh man, i can't do this anymore. oral path is killing me. i don't know what all the positive frame of mind stuff was i wrote yesterday. sometimes i read words and i don't even know what they mean, like lentigious. maligna. and apparently, there are differences between the words well-demarcated and well-circumscribed and sclerotic margin, and i can't quite assign them all to the right cysts and lesions...i've been reduced to doing what i thought i would never ever have to do, and that is make silly little mnemonics for lists of lesions, like SV KFC PIG BOON or ASEL-CHO. it's getting ridiculous! this stuff is neat, and i haven't exactly been procrastinating, but i need at least 2 or 3 more days for everything to get perfectly. i've only got tonight and tomorrow night....

but at least, after tomorrow, it will be thursday, and that brings me one step closer to friday, which brings me ever so close to march break. i'll probably be spending that studying (playing catch-up), but at least i can punctuate that with at least three dinners out i have planned so far.

what else. i visited my new apartment today....what a disappointment. it's small, it's dingy, it's dark, and it'll need a lot of work (that frankly i don't know if i want to do) before sitting in that place will give me a sense of japanese-esque zen. the closet is super small, the kitchen is gross-looking, the oven looks like a defunct piece of crap from the 1950s, the fridge tips 25 degrees when you open the door, there is this terrible black border of plastic around the entire apartment, heating ducts in the weirdest places, a bathroom without a counter and the mirror is up so high i can really only see a third of my face. what the heck? but at around 500 bucks a month for rent, utilities included, i suppose its worth it. goodbye to bright open airy spaces overlooking the river...