no matter how not nervous i am, i can never get to sleep - like that - the day before school starts. i can't say that i'm particularly excited for the first day of school...the first day promises a year of gruelling 8 to 5 days and an earful of matrix bands and the joy of sticking each other with syringes full of anaesthetic, and i've had, let's see, like 13 first days of schools throughout my illustrious lifetime, so you'd think i'd be good at it, but nope, i'm here, on this vast wasteland of futile activity, even actively engaging people in msn conversations.

perhaps my problem was that i thought i needed, oh, 12 hours of sleep, and tried to hunker down at around 8 or 9. i brought a book to bed with me, got bored of it, put my song of the day winterlong on repeat 10 times, listened to it from bed, opened the window a tad, closed it a tad, pulled out some other books (negating my book rearranging effort from earlier today), and then turned off the light. i tried to assume positions most conducive to sleep, such as the contorted lotus position, but to no avail. i twisted and turned, considered calling people i hadn't talked to in 5 years with the opening greeting "hey so-and-so? it's me. i can't sleep", then totally woke up in exasperation, ate a tomato, and did the computer thing. aaaaaaaaaargh.

that's enough for today.