bonjourno.

sigh sigh sigh...i wish i could be living an agricultural life in tuscany, tending grapes. then i could be a perfectly tanned, sun-kissed bella with brown ringlets pinned loosely upon my head, banging tambourines when the mood struck me. instead, i am the pasty creature-thing, withering in the harsh fluorescent light, finishing work till the early dawn, lugging myself (or, on some rare mornings, walking with a light step) to school, voluntarily checking in for a gruelling 9 hours of lecture, probably 3-4 hours of practice, and 4-6 hours of studying. all at the expense of restful beauty sleep.

withered! withered! waaaah!!! anyway, that's how i feel, physically.

at the same time, all this studying, well, it's kinda neat. i feel that what we're studying is important, and i only wish i could have a bit more time to fully digest and peruse the subject matters. apparently, that's what summer is for, but that's not quite in line with my thinking yet!

my first purchase after exams? a TELEVISION! A BOOB TUBE! A DUMB BOX! then i'm going to watch tv until my brain grows fungus. well, i need to take advantage of "free" cable at my place, and i need a physical sway for me to spend more time on my unused couch. i was flirting with the idea of getting one, say, this weekend, but that's russian roulette, baby. i don't really know how to play that game, but it conjures up ideas of smoky, velvet, and smouldering glamourous women playing dice with danger. and baby, that's me. hehehehe.

okay, i'm not. nite nite.